As soon as Gu Zhao's words came out, Jin Xin was immediately stunned and stared at Gu Zhao, trying to find a familiar face in this face.
But it had been too long. More than ten years had passed. Her only impression of that man was that he was floating on the river with injuries. She fished him out, took him home and took care of him for a few days.
He didn't speak, just watched her do things. Jin Xin also treated him as a mute and talked to him about the troubles at home.
After taking care of him for a few days, he got better, and then he disappeared.
Soon, the father forcibly took away the three of them, mother and daughter, and naturally he never returned to Suzhou City.
Jin Xin didn't expect that Gu Zhao would be that boy.
But that boy is not so good-looking.
He was dark and had messy hair. Otherwise, why didn't Jin Xin think it was him when she checked him last time.
"Are you mute?" Jin Xin asked.
"I was the one who was rescued by you, but I didn't speak at that time. It was because my throat was injured and I couldn't speak. I was very grateful to you at that time for letting me be reborn, otherwise I would have drowned in the river. The reason for leaving without saying goodbye is because the young master of the master's family was rescued and sent someone to look for me. I have to go back, and when I come back, you have been taken away by your family."
After hearing this, Jin Xin couldn't help but feel sad that she could still meet an old friend after so many years.
"How did you recognize me?" Jin Xin was curious.
"I didn't recognize you at first, and your appearance changed a lot. It was after you rescued me from the Seventh Princess that I learned that you lived in Suzhou City when you were young. I sent someone to check and found out it was you."
Gu Zhao said, feeling doubly bitter.
Obviously I met her first. If I hadn't left at that time, I would have missed her.
When she found out she was an old friend, she had already given birth to a child for someone else, and there was no turning back.
It's not that Gu Zhao has never thought about letting go, but he is a person who knows how to repay kindness and wants to repay kindness. In this process, he is getting deeper and deeper into trouble and cannot extricate himself.
I also had an obsession and wanted to take her away, but what to do with her child? What if I took her away and wandered away for the rest of my life?
She may not be willing to accept herself either.
From the beginning to the end, he chose to repay the favor without letting go or forcing it, or he just let himself store his feelings and not get entangled in them.
After thinking about this, he was completely relieved.
Jin Xin frowned, feeling complicated. She was not reminiscing about her old relationship with Gu Zhao now, but he was expressing his love for her.
She was the emperor's queen, so she couldn't give Gu Zhao any response, but she was also under great pressure and felt that she was no longer pure.
She can exploit other people's weaknesses to her own advantage, and she can also cooperate with others to achieve a win-win situation, but she cannot accept emotional threats to take advantage of them.
Everything in the world can be exchanged for real money and silver, but feelings are of immeasurable value.
She didn't want to be that disgusting woman.
"Thank you for paying so much for me. Over the years, you have repaid me enough. We are now settled."
When Gu Zhao heard this, he suddenly became nervous, "I am not saying this to make it clear to you, nor am I asking you to do anything. I want to tell you that your kindness to me will never be forgotten in my life. No matter what I do, I will never forget it." Whatever I do will never harm you or your child."
Jin Xin nodded, "Thank you, General Gu. I understand. Now that I have spoken out today, I will also make it clear to you. Your Majesty is a wise king. My Hong'er is still young, and I am a woman. None of my mother's family can protect him. The emperor values him. No matter how hard it is for me, as long as he cares about my child, I can accept his indifference, because it's not just my personal feelings that affect me. , as well as the fate of our mother and son, and my family, can you understand?"
Jin Xin's sincere gaze touched Gu Zhao and he nodded, "I understand, I understand that I am not fighting for power for myself, and I will not hurt the eldest prince. Don't worry about this."
Jin Xin stood up and slowly turned around. Seeing this, Gu Zhao wanted to stop her, but he did not dare to touch her due to his status. He could only take two steps back, raised his hands and bowed deeply in return.
He knew that there would be no results between them. She could only be the queen, and she might be the queen mother in the future. He was just General Gu, a minister of the Celestial Dynasty.
The queen was not angry, she was tolerant of him.
She was already a queen, the most noble woman in the world. How could she stay for him? How could he dare to expect a response from her.
When he left the palace, although Gu Zhao felt relieved, he felt uncomfortable for a long time.
Jin Xin was sitting there alone. Cui Gu came in first. Seeing that her eyes were red, she didn't dare to ask. She just brought her tea.
Jin Xin looked at Cui Gu and held her hand, "Cui Gu, I suddenly feel very uncomfortable."
"Is it because of General Gu?" Cuigu was surprised. This couldn't be helped. Why was the queen so sentimental?
Jin Xin smiled bitterly, "That's not entirely true. I suddenly felt that I should have had another path to take, but I ended up in the palace by accident."
Her ambition was forced out, and it was not that ambitious from the beginning.
But this road is quite tiring, and if you make one wrong step, you will be doomed.
No matter the position of queen, she only acted based on the look of that man.
"Why do you have to think like this? The path you take is arranged by God. As for how you will end up, it depends on your own destiny. Your Majesty is walking very well. At least, from your starting point to today, you are better than ordinary women. Too much." Cuigu looked at her gently and advised.
She saw with her own eyes how the queen came to be. In the prince's mansion, she was a domestic servant's daughter, a humble and cowardly concubine, a cautious concubine, and then gradually developed an ambition to become a virtuous concubine, a noble concubine, and an imperial concubine. , she is not perfect, but at least she does not give up on herself, and she clearly knows what she wants.
But if she were still in Suzhou City, her life would be like that of most ordinary women. She would arrange a husband at home and get married. If everything went well, the couple would be loving, harmonious, and have a smooth life.
If you meet an unkind person, you still have to struggle to move forward. Life is much harder than in the palace. You have to live a hard life with several children and have no spare time to earn food and clothing. If you rely on unreliable men for food and clothing, the outcome may not be certain. How much better.
It's just that the queen has moved to a larger environment and reached a position of dignity.
Cuigu has seen too many miserable things for poor and humble couples, and she doesn't want her to be emotional.
Jinxin looked into Cuigu's eyes and suddenly woke up.
She is indeed a little sentimental. There is no turning back in life. She can only cherish the present and live well in the present. Not everyone can make a second choice.
As he was talking, the emperor came. Seeing the silence in the palace, he was slightly puzzled, "It's quite quiet in your room. What's wrong? Are you in a bad mood?"
Jin Xin adjusted her mood and smiled, "I just feel homesick all of a sudden. I don't want my servants to see my concubine in shame."
