Jiang Xingjian looked at her as if she was crying and laughing, with a restrained yet faintly crazy look on her face, and raised her hand to touch it.
"sorry."
"I'm sorry Jiayue."
Lin Jiayue laughed out loud after hearing these words: "Brother Xingjian, you have nothing to apologize to me for."
Holding Jiang Xingjian's hand caressing her face, Lin Jiayue said, "It's Yue'er who loves you."
Gently rubbing the palm of her cheek, Lin Jiayue smiled and asked with her eyes wide open: "Brother Xingjian, I have your child again."
She stretched out her slender palms to caress Jiang Xingjian's face, with an incomprehensible fanaticism in her eyes.
Her heart, which had become numb and crazy due to long-term suppression, was beating wildly at this moment. Lin Jiayue expected Jiang Xingjian to say, "We don't want this child."
She wanted him to abort his own flesh and blood again with his own hands, aborting the last and only child in his life.
"Brother Xingjian, our child is looking for us."
Putting the man's palm on her lower abdomen, the girl said in a faint voice: "The doctor said that you can't feel his presence yet, but in two months, he will be as old as our first child."
"Brother Xingjian, do you think he will be a boy or a girl."
Jiang Xingjian looked at her with deep eyes.
He seemed to see in Lin Jiayue the angry and righteous look of Song Wan who stabbed him without hesitation.
They were childhood sweethearts, but what went wrong to make Song Wan and Lin Jiayue like this?
Jiang Xingjian's heart ached, so he took Lin Jiayue's hand and said warmly: "I hope he is a boy."
"The Chengyang Marquis Mansion does not have many heirs. If it is a boy, I can teach him to go into battle and kill enemies like his grandfather and make great achievements."
"If it's a boy, you can teach him tricks and firearms."
When Lin Jiayue heard this, her face was distorted for a moment, but she quickly smiled again: "Brother Xingjian is right, our children will definitely be outstanding and invincible."
She buried her head in the man's arms, hiding her disdain in her eyes.
What he said was really nice, but she was not afraid. She was waiting for the day when Jiang Xingjian would use his dirty tricks again.
She must let him see her heir with his own eyes this time and cut her off in front of him. She wants him to feel pain. She wants Jiang Xingjian to feel pain like a knife and find it difficult to breathe when she sees a baby in her life.
The two hugged each other, seemingly sweet.
Jiang Xingjian gently stroked Lin Jiayue's thin and frail back, but her thoughts were wandering.
"Brother Xing Jian is busy first, while Yue'er goes to Longxiangzhai to read and calm down."
After putting away the dishes, Lin Jiayue walked out of the house.
As soon as Fang went out, the smile on her face gradually became stiff, and she went to the small Buddhist hall in Lunxiangzhai with an expressionless face.
"All evil attachments are based on my opinion. If you stay away from me, there will be no evil attachments..."
She picked up the scriptures left by Song Wan and recited them over and over again until her voice became hoarse and she could hardly speak another sentence.
Behind the niche in the small Buddhist hall are two wordless tablets, and a palm-sized porcelain doll is enshrined in front of the newest one.
Lin Jiayue held it in her palm and burst into tears.
"I did not mean it……"
"No, I did it on purpose."
"I can't help you..."
The porcelain in the palm of her hand was gradually warmed by her body temperature. Lin Jiayue gritted her teeth and knelt in front of the small Buddhist hall, sometimes smiling ferociously, sometimes crying bitterly.
She thought about taking Shen Qianshu's life, but she couldn't bring herself to do it cruelly. She sent many dangerous things into the palace, and she also thought that the little fifth prince might one day die from those things, but...
But she...
Lin Jiayue bit her lip, hating herself and feeling extremely self-loathing.
She hated that she could not do the best, yet she could forgive Jiang Xingjian for forcing her to kill her own flesh and blood, and she also hated that she could not have the heart to be treacherous and evil, yet could ignore the lives of innocent people.
She hated her mediocrity and also hated herself for being incompetent.
Lin Jiayue lay on her back, biting her lip and crying silently.
Every day she could feel the pain of her soul being separated from her body, and the despair of being unable to relieve the stagnation of the five aggregates of greed and hatred.
Jiang Xing was sitting on the eaves of Duanxiangzhai. The door that had not been closed was letting out a little bit of pain and whining in the wind. She looked at it with sad eyes, but she was helpless.
She knew that Aunt Lin didn't want her to see the other person's crazy appearance, but she really didn't want to leave her alone to struggle in pain.
The night breeze was blowing. Jiang Xing gathered his hair that had been blown away by the wind and continued to sit where he was in a gentle and dignified manner.
"Little Xingxing, are you here to accompany me?"
"Sister Yue'er."
Jiang Xing stood up and stretched out his hand in front of Lin Jiayue who was smiling.
Lin Jiayue held her hand and rubbed it gently: "It's so cold, are you freezing?"
"It's not cold, Xing'er, but you're dressed a little thinly."
"It looks thin, but I also have a cotton lining inside."
He led Jiang Xing and walked back to Xiuyan Pavilion from Luanxiangzhai. The two of them played together for a while before going back to their rooms.
It was getting late, and the lights in the rooms of Chengyang Hou Mansion were turned off one after another. However, Shen Qianyu was still sitting like a rock in Lai Yi Pavilion, with no intention of leaving.
It wasn't that he had any evil intentions today, but that the Nanqing envoy's visit made him don't know how to speak.
Song Wan seemed to realize that he had something to say, so he sat quietly aside, waiting for Shen Qianyu to speak.
She neither urged nor asked, but her gentle and gentle appearance made Shen Qianyu's restless heart strangely calm.
After thinking for a moment, he held Song Wan's hand in his palm and said dullly: "I received a secret message that the Nanqing envoy is coming to Dongning."
"Nan Qing?"
Song Wan frowned. He really didn't have a good impression of this murderous and plundering country.
Nanqing has a strong military force, and both men and women can go to the battlefield. Not only are they warlike, they are also fond of killing and looting. It is said that the only person who could force the Nanqing border army to retreat was King Sucheng who died early in the battle to seize the throne.
Ten years ago, Dongning and Nanqing fought with each other and their vitality was severely damaged. What was even more despising to the people of Dongning was that the bones of Emperor Wen Hui were knocked out in that battle.
Over the years, Emperor Wen Hui almost turned pale when talking about Nanqing.
If not, he would not have made the decision to send the prince to Nan Qing as a hostage.
"His Highness Qidao is feeling agitated today, that's why."
Gently squeezing Shen Qianyu's palm, Song Wan comforted him softly: "What concerns does your highness have about Nan Qing? If your highness is willing, you can talk to Wan'er."
"It's not that I don't want to."
Shen Qianyu spoke calmly: "The Nanqing royal family is addicted to lewdness, from the king to the princes and princesses."
"The old monarch of Nanqing had a son and a daughter. It's not that he only gave birth to these two children, but he only recognized these two as his sons."
"Qin Zhan, the new king of Nanqing, is the son of the old king and his queen, while the princess is the son of the old king and Mrs. Lianyi of Nanqing."
Song Wan's eyes widened, and he frowned for a while and said, "If Wan'er remembers correctly, Mrs. Lianyi belongs to the old monarch of Nanqing..."
Shen Qianyu said: "My direct aunt."
Because she was too surprised, Shen Qianyu saw that the look in her eyes slowly faded, as if she was trying to regain her consciousness and say something to respond to him.
Holding the person in his arms, Shen Qianyu chuckled: "I don't say anything because I'm afraid it will dirty your ears."
Although his wife is smart but very disciplined, she has no idea that there is such a ridiculous and hateful human hell in this world as the Nanqing royal family.
After thinking for a while, Shen Qianyu said: "Qin Rao is the biological daughter of these two people. She..."
Thinking of Qin Rao, the man paused and seemed to be wondering where to start.
