Fortunately, Song Muchuan waited patiently for Nan Yi and was not in a hurry to ask questions.
"I met Xie Queshan and was almost killed by him..." Nan Yi calmed down his emotions, omitting some unspeakable processes in the middle, and told half truths and half lies, "Then I heard him say that he wanted to annihilate Yucheng Jun, so I injured him and tried to escape to report the news. Mr. Song, I will definitely not be able to go back to the Xie family, and there is no place for me in Lidu Mansion. Even if you send me to Jinling, as long as I I’m afraid it’s hard to keep up with my current abilities. I really want to learn some self-defense skills, so I said I wanted to stay in the Yucheng Army.”
Across such dim light, Song Muchuan looked at Nan Yi. He realized that she had changed tremendously after just a few days without seeing her. The girl he sent off to the boat was timid and uneasy, like a bunch of frightened weeds, holding on to something insubstantial and desperately drifting forward. He tried hard to send her to a safer place, but he ignored that no matter where she went, she would be a rootless duckweed.
But now, some of the fear disappeared in her eyes, and he didn't know whether this was good or bad. The good thing is that she has become fearless, but the bad thing is that the thing holding her up seems to have collapsed.
He thought that she once asked him, is there anything you want to do in the future? He said yes, and her expression was happy.
In her heart, only when a person has something he wants to do can he survive.
Has the thing in her heart become disillusioned?
He didn't dare to ask further. He was afraid it was her wound. But he wanted to give her a place to go, a place to belong to.
"Madam, have you ever thought about joining Bingzhusi?"
By saying this, he frankly exposed his identity to her.
Nan Yi's eyes widened in surprise: "Me?"
"Yes." He replied firmly.
"How can I match it?" Nan Yi blurted out in surprise.
"Why is Madam so unworthy? Saving Mr. Xie, finding out the secrets in Wangxuewu, helping Xie Liu countless times, and even rescuing Yucheng's army today, these things are enough to put all the spies in Lidu Mansion beyond their reach. . Madam, you may have never realized that you are a piece of jade. It was luck once or twice, but you were able to save yourself from danger every time, which shows that your strategy, wisdom, and even your awareness and judgment are no worse than anyone else."
She felt that what Song Muchuan said was not her, but wasn't every statement about her exactly?
Nan Yi has never looked at herself from that perspective. She first thought that she was still the little thief who lived a wandering life, but since when...she has slowly gained a firm footing.
She made friends she never thought she would have, and she helped them, and they gave her back.
Every time she escaped from death, she gained new insights and experiences. Every time she survived, she took a step out from her ignorance and slowly saw the complex world and people's hearts. She completed something unconsciously. Some transformations.
Xie Queshan was a person whose name would make her shiver when she thought of it, but there were traces of him everywhere in the growth of her life. The strong wind and rain he brought became the rain that nourished her to take root and sprout. The moment she pulled out the trunk and stretched out the branches, she suddenly realized that she might not be a grass, but a tree.
Nowadays, she can negotiate terms with Yu Chengjun without even kneeling down to beg for help. If he doesn't let her kneel down, she really never kneels down again and walks in this troubled world standing up.
She hates him, but her emotions are also complicated. She couldn't tell what it was. She had obviously escaped, but she always felt that his rope was still tied to a certain part of her body. It made her feel like a mess when she thought of him, and her heart ached.
She was in a daze for a while before looking at Song Muchuan.
"I don't want to join the Bingzhu Division either," she said. "Everyone in the Bingzhu Division would like to die, but I haven't thought about it. I may not be willing to sacrifice for this."
Song Muchuan did not answer, but looked at her gently. He did not escape her confession, nor did he show any displeasure. It was because of his generosity that she could continue speaking boldly.
"Sir, I can only see the petty profit in front of me, I have no high righteousness."
"All living beings in the world have different ways of living. If you want everyone to have high righteousness, it would be too harsh. Madam, if you don't want to join the Bingzhusi, can you consider helping me occasionally?"
Nan Yi was a little confused: "How can I help?"
"Sixth Miss must have told Madam that sending His Highness Prince Ling'an out of the city is a top priority. The situation in Lidu Mansion is turbulent and ever-changing, and there will always be times when manpower is needed. If Madam can help, when we can successfully transport His Highness to New Zealand I will help him ascend the throne, and I can also ask for a reward from the imperial court for you. At that time, even if you are only rewarded with an acre of thin farmland, it will be your confidence to rely on the imperial court, and you will have a foundation no matter where you go."
Nan Yi's eyes lit up little by little.
That was what she was asking for. When the jade bracelet was broken, she had given up on going back to Zhang Yue. Placing your hopes on others will never last long. People who trek rely on their own legs to move forward.
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It was only on the second day that Xie Queshan learned from Wanyan Jun what happened in Tiger Kneeling Mountain.
Usha was domineering in military affairs before and blocked Wanyan Jun's way. He only had a few achievements and everyone wanted to share them. No one could grab the biggest one. So Usha was actually given to Wanyan Jun by Xie Queshan. He was the one who sent the message to Wan Yanjun.
Song Muchuan's letter made his plan very clear. He not only hoped that "Yan" could help sow discord, but also hoped that he could prompt Wanyan Jun to use explosives. But Xie Queshan didn't mention the idea of explosives in the end. Firstly, Wanyan Jun himself was a person who was keen on using gunpowder for surprise attacks. Secondly, this was the only way to quickly kill two groups of people in the tunnel. Let Wanyan Jun figure it out on his own, which would be more silent than him pointing it out.
Now that Wanyan Jun had won a great victory, he naturally wanted to sell Xie Queshan a favor and promised not to pursue Mrs. Gantang's fault.
After all, Yucheng's army has been destroyed. For Wanyan Jun, a woman from the back house can't make any waves, and Xie Queshan is the person he wants to win over. He is much more useful than a reckless man like Usha.
The joy on Xie Queshan's face was somewhat real.
A heavy stone fell to the ground.
He knew that this risky move was successful, and he escaped smoothly, clearing himself of the suspicion and regaining Wanyan Jun's trust. Every step must be done exactly, and the final success can be said to be a matter of great luck.
He placed all his bets on Nan Yi. He took advantage of her stubborn desire to survive and broke her jade bracelet to give her a chance to escape. He bet that she would report the news to Yucheng's army. Only if this step is completed, will there be room for change in the following things.
And she never let him down.
Ultimately, it's him who's disappointing.
He was selfish and stingy, overbearing and authoritarian, maybe because there was nothing that belonged to him in his life, and he became possessive of her. He was addicted to every little thing about getting along with her, and he just wanted to keep her. Be by your side.
He used secret after secret to lure her into the situation, making her sink deeper and deeper, making it impossible for her to escape from his side. How could he not be humble? He thought that this way, she would consciously stay.
When he found out she was leaving, he was really angry and wanted to kill her. How could she betray him? How could he allow the tip of the knife he cultivated to point towards him?
He should have killed her, either to avoid future trouble or to eliminate the root cause, but he couldn't do it.
Because none of this is her fault. She is a living person, with her joys, sorrows, desires, and desires, and it is these fresh and vivid things that move him. Why could he dominate these and force her to become his puppet?
At this moment, he decided to let go, send her away, and let everything return to its original position.
But some mistakes have been made. He couldn't just let him go.
Even if she is to leave, her future and safety must be taken into consideration. She had made a public appearance in rescuing her third uncle, and had also helped her second sister secretly buy food and grass. If someone discovered something from the clues, she would definitely be in danger. And she didn't know where she was. She just thought she was an ordinary person, but she couldn't go back.
Bingzhusi outside Lidu Mansion could at most follow Song Muchuan's instructions and go to the ferry to pick up Nan Yi. For more things, no one would take care of her. The spies had a lot to worry about, and she was nothing. important person.
What's more, when she gets to the south, what will she rely on to gain a foothold? Is a woman holding money alone because she is afraid that no one will covet her in the chaotic current situation? Should she count on her unreliable and imaginary fiancé? Or do you count on Song Muchuan, who has no time to take care of himself? He was even more afraid that she would be deceived by some smooth-tongued bastard and end up losing both her life and money.
The information about Yu Chengjun is a favor he gave to Nan Yi. She will save Yu Chengjun. Yu Chengjun will protect her and Bingzhu Si will respect her. Song Muchuan will also know her weight and protect her in a more comprehensive way. she. Bingzhusi is not a good place for ordinary people. The tip of the knife licks blood and is extremely dangerous, but for her who is already in the game, it is a reliable background.
The world of cannibalism will not wait for her to grow up slowly before causing trouble. Crisis is everywhere, and he can only use the method of risking death to survive and encourage others to grow. He won't let her be a duckweed, and he can let her go by finding roots for her.
And she was just a passer-by in his long life. They traveled together, nothing more. Those false friendships will soon dissipate as time goes by. He is used to being a bad person, so he doesn't need her to be grateful to him, even hatred and fear are good.
This is the right farewell.
He first regarded himself as a dead person, a body. Only in this way can he survive. The seven emotions and six desires of mortals are reversed here. He has to hate what he loves and love what he hates, so that he can move forward with difficulty. No one in this world doesn't want the love of family, friends and even lovers, but he just wants to push these things away.
As long as there is a little greed and nostalgia, it will be destroyed like a thousand-mile embankment in an ant nest.
This was the last time he thought of her, and he hoped that she would have a bright future and one day live the life she longed for.
Then never and ever, never meet him again.
