After Pei Xiuyan left, Ye Chuyan lay on the bed unconsciously. He gently placed his hands on his stomach and cried loudly.
When she was young, the doctor said that she would have few offspring in this life.
It turns out, it's all true.
Things that have already been determined by fate can never be changed.
When she grew up, even if she changed her body, she still couldn't be a mother.
In the past few days, Pei Xiuyan has never set foot in Kunning Palace again.
Ye Chuyan was like crazy in Kunning Palace, constantly talking to his stomach every day.
Talk about all the things he and Wu Mu have experienced together.
By the morning of New Year's Eve, her tears had completely dried up, and her face was no longer desperate and sad.
She became quiet and calm again.
She whispered to her belly: "Remember what grandma told you. If you leave, don't blame your grandpa."
"It's not that he didn't protect us two, it's that I didn't have the ability to protect you."
When the maids saw that she was awake, they filed in carrying things and came in to wash and change her clothes.
They brought a set of bright and flamboyant red coats and skirts, and a cloak of the same color.
The outside of the cloak is studded with jewels, which is brilliant and dazzling.
Ye Chuyan liked this outfit very much and obediently let the palace maid dress and make up for him.
This color is really nice. It's not that noticeable when it bleeds, nor is it shocking.
The fetus in her belly seemed to sense something, and it didn't bother her at all today.
She didn't suffer from morning sickness at all and was extremely energetic.
She was thinking that maybe the child felt sorry for her and wanted to make her less uncomfortable in her last moments. What a well-behaved and sensible child. It's a pity that I don't have the opportunity in this life.
When she lowered her head and looked at her abdomen, she suddenly saw the blood-red jade pendant tied to her. She suddenly remembered that when Dibu gave the jade pendant as a gift, he had mentioned the idea of revisiting the old place. She was startled for a moment, lowered her eyes, and was lost for a long time.
When she changed her clothes and stepped out of Kunning Palace, she found that Pei Xiuyan was already standing outside the palace waiting for her.
He did not use the sedan chair used by the emperor to drive him away, but used the same carriage as the Qing palace.
The driver of the car was serious and expressionless as before.
Pei Xiuyan wore the same color clothes and the same cloak as her today.
When he saw Ye Chuyan, he jumped out of the carriage, raised the corners of his mouth, and smiled as warmly as jade.
"Ayan, get in the car quickly."
Pei Xiuyan helped Ye Chuyan get into the carriage and rushed all the way to Prince Qing's Mansion.
He did not bring an honor guard, nor did he let the eunuchs and maids follow him, just like a private patrol incognito.
After leaving the palace and walking on the streets of Kyoto, Ye Chuyan opened a corner of the curtain and quietly looked at everything outside the sedan.
Today is New Year's Eve, the streets are decorated with lights and colorful decorations, and everyone's face is filled with joy.
This is a day for family reunion.
This year’s New Year’s Eve in Kyoto is almost no different from previous years.
For Ye Chuyan, these scenes that were once so familiar and so ordinary have now become a luxury.
If she returns to Kunning Palace again, she will be trapped there again.
If there were no accidents, I might never have the chance to step out of the palace in this life.
But in just one year, she seemed to have completed a long life.
As the legitimate daughter of the Ye family, I watched all of the Ye family die.
As the Qing Princess, she framed Pei Xiuyan.
As Bai Jin, compete with Na Sheng in a battle of wits and courage.
As Lady Wu Mu, she fled to the end of the world with him.
Now, as the original Ye Chuyan, she returns to Dafeng to be a quiet queen.
She suddenly remembered the scene when Wu Mu took her flying in the air.
That morning of flying towards the rising sun seemed like a dream.
That kind of freedom will never be available again in this life.
Things that are too beautiful never last long.
When Ye Chuyan was staring at the scene outside the curtain, Pei Xiuyan was sitting in the carriage looking at her dreamily.
She sat in the car and silently looked at the scene outside.
Even though he is wearing a flamboyant red, he is not dazzling at all, and the whole person is quiet and quiet.
When she was young, she used to chase after him and call her Brother Yan without getting tired of it.
When she was angry, she called herself Pei Xiuyan angrily.
After she married him, she called herself "Prince" over and over again.
When she was taking revenge, she pretended to call herself A Ce affectionately.
Now, she is like a flower and grass on the roadside, with no sound or emotion.
But when he gets close to her, she becomes scared and helpless.
Where has the once enthusiastic Ye Chuyan gone?
"Master, we're here."
A sharp voice interrupted the two people's thoughts.
Pei Xiuyan hid all his expressions and regained his gentleness.
He jumped out of the carriage first, lifted the curtain with one hand, reached into the carriage with the other, and said softly to Ye Chuyan: "Ayan, I'll take you home."
Ye Chuyan looked down at Pei Xiuyan's hand, and his nose suddenly became sore.
Last time, she plotted against Pei Xiuyan. When Pei Xiuyan broke into the harem at night, he stretched out his hand like this and said to her gently: Ayan, I'm here to take you home.
However, the Ye family is gone, and she no longer has a home.
There was a child in her belly, and she could not give the child a home.
Wumu is her home, and she will never see Wumu again in this life.
Pei Xiuyan saw that Ye Chuyan was still moving, so he slowly went up and took her hand.
This time, Ye Chuyan did not struggle.
He let Pei Xiuyan lead his hand and get out of the carriage.
The door of Prince Qing's Mansion suddenly opened, and Madam Mo came out with a group of servants.
"Master, you are back."
Madam Mo is exactly the same as before the accident, she is still as energetic and smiling.
Ye Chuyan looked at Pei Xiuyan doubtfully.
At first, the Qing palace was judged as treason. Logically speaking, everyone in the Qing Palace should be punished for the same crime. Why are Mrs. Mo and the others okay?
Pei Xiuyan looked straight ahead calmly, and while holding Ye Chuyan's hand and walking into the house, he explained carefully:
"When I escaped, Pei Ye kept interrogating them about my whereabouts in order to catch me, but he didn't have time to kill them."
"After I ascended the throne, I released them all and asked them to continue to guard this place."
"I know it's me you want to take revenge on, not them."
"You never want to implicate any innocent people if you can help it."
Ye Chuyan hesitated in his steps.
It turns out that Pei Xiuyan knows everything.
She raised her head, looked at Pei Xiuyan's profile, and said calmly:
"Did you guess everything when you broke into the harem at night?"
Pei Xiuyan did not stop, his expression remained gentle and indifferent.
He nodded slightly.
"Well, when I stood at the gate of the palace that day, I probably understood your purpose. I know that you are not the kind of person who loves glory and wealth, and you will not cling to Pei Ye."
"Otherwise, when the Queen Mother is alive, you will marry Pei Ye and become the queen, and you will not have to marry me."
"But, so what if you know?"
"As long as it's something you want, I'm willing to give it to you."
"If you want my life, I will send it to you."
Ye Chuyan was a little confused.
At first, she loved Pei Xiuyan so deeply, but later she hated him so much.
Now, all love and hate are gone.
Even if she knew that he was going to abort the child in her belly, she couldn't hate her at all.
The world is full of vicissitudes. Have people changed, or have their hearts changed?
At this moment, they talked about the past again, as if they were outsiders.
Snowflakes suddenly appeared in the sky and were scattered in the air like grains of salt.
Madam Mo ran over and handed over an umbrella.
Pei Xiuyan held Ye Chuyan in one hand and held an umbrella in the other.
He was tall and tall. When holding an umbrella, he tilted the umbrella completely to the side, just enough to completely cover the petite Ye Chuyan next to him.
They walked slowly in the palace and came to the former Jianjiayuan.
Opening the door, Ye Chuyan felt like he was in another world.
She has lived here for three and a half years, and it has carried her many joys, sorrows, and joys.
To be precise, it was more anger and sadness.
While waiting for Pei Xiuyan, he was disappointed again and again and despaired again and again.
When I was left out by him, I felt sad again and again, and I felt hesitant again and again.
Now, standing here again, she felt neither sad nor happy.
Pei Xiuyan lowered his head and looked at Ye Chuyan beside him, his tone a little sad.
"Ayan, I'm sorry. I have caused you countless hurt and pain here."
"If I could do it again, I would never hurt you again."
There was a hint of caution in his sad tone.
Ye Chuyan raised his head and glanced at him, pursed his lips, and whispered:
"No need to say sorry, I don't care anymore."
Pei Xiuyan was stunned for a moment, then took Ye Chuyan's hand and continued to walk forward slowly.
When passing by the lotus pond, the two people stopped at the same time.
In this weather, there is not much water in the lotus pond, and the water surface has frozen.
Standing on the shore, you can vaguely see a few dry and dead poles under the ice.
Ye Chuyan suddenly laughed proudly.
"You know what? I'm not afraid of the cold or the water now."
The experience of escaping from Beirong Palace made her no longer afraid of water, and the days with Wu Mu made her no longer afraid of the cold.
Pei Xiuyan looked at Ye Chuyan silently. She smiled quietly and beautifully, without any fear.
Next to the lotus pond is the attic where she fell into miscarriage.
Ye Chuyan's love for Pei Xiuyan began to die from here.
This time, it was Ye Chuyan who took the initiative to pull Pei Xiuyan forward.
She pulled Pei Xiuyan to the second floor of the attic, opened the window, leaned her back against the window, and smiled slightly at Pei Xiuyan.
"This time, let me do it myself."
After saying that, she closed her eyes, leaned back and fell down from the attic.
She didn't see how surprised and sad Pei Xiuyan's expression was the moment she leaned down.
Ye Chuyan didn't expect the pain as he imagined, and couldn't help but open his eyes slightly.
He found himself lying in Pei Xiuyan's arms.
Pei Xiuyan looked at her lovingly, just like when he saw her playing "Broken Love" in the harem.
He seemed to remember his appearance with his right eye.
Seen at such a close distance, his facial features are still so handsome.
He is still the affectionate Ace.
The two of them just maintained this posture.
There was no sound in the Western Zhou Dynasty.
The snowflakes turned into heavy snow at some point, falling on Pei Xiuyan one by one.
The cold wind blew by and took away a few pieces.
The rest slowly piled up on his back and hair.
He looked at Ye Chuyan in his arms lustfully.
She is so petite and thin.
She was so decisive and straightforward when she jumped down just now.
She was looking at herself with puzzled eyes, as if asking: Why did you save me?
In her heart, she brought her here today just to hurt her again.
This is not her home, it is the place that brings her all the pain.
No matter before or now, no matter what I do, all I can bring to her is harm.
Pei Xiuyan's face was gradually stained with indescribable sadness.
He said in an extremely annoyed and sad voice: "Ayan, I'm sorry, I broke my promise and couldn't take you home today."
After saying that, his right eye circle was completely red.
He suddenly choked up.
After choking for a long time, I asked cautiously:
"Ayan, if I had saved you like I did now... would I be able to take you home today?"
Ye Chuyan lowered his eyes and said slowly: "Pei Xiuyan, did you know? I secretly hid a lock of my hair in the compartment of the purse I gave you when I was eight years old."
"Because I overheard the maid in the house saying that as long as one person collects another person's hair, they can get married and grow old together. At that time, I didn't know what it meant to grow old together. I just wanted to grow up. Marry you and be with you forever.”
"On the second day after I was born, the Queen Mother's aunt called me into the palace and forced me to marry Pei Ye and make me the queen. I cried and told her: I, Ye Chuyan, will not marry anyone but Pei Xiuyan in this life. If Pei Xiuyan does not marry me, I will Be alone all your life."
"When I gave you the Resurrection Grass, I never thought that you would really agree to marry me. Even if you don't want to, I will still give you the Resurrection Grass."
"At that time, as long as I saw you smiling, I felt happy."
"I loved you with all my strength and wanted to spend the rest of my life with you. However, you made me stay alone in the empty room on the night of the wedding. You did not drink wine with me or perform a wedding ceremony with me."
"Perhaps, we are destined not to be a married couple."
"Later, when I found out that I was pregnant, I felt that all my efforts were worth it. I have had a cold in my uterus since I was a child, and it was not easy to be pregnant. I don't care how much injustice you have made me suffer, I just want to give birth to a child that looks like the two of us. The same kids.”
"Later, our child disappeared. My love for you also died with the child."
When Ye Chuyan said these words, his face was calm and calm.
These secrets hidden deep in her heart once made her miserable just thinking about them. Now she can talk about it calmly and without feeling upset at all.
After she said this, she found that Pei Xiuyan was trembling all over, his right eye was frighteningly red, and the despair in his eyes was like a vast ocean, with no end in sight.
She looked at Pei Xiuyan seriously and said softly: "Pei Xiuyan, some things are gone when they pass away. They can never come back."
Although her voice was very soft, her words were very deep.
It was so heavy that every word was like a giant hammer, smashing Pei Xiuyan's heart to pieces.
Pei Xiuyan finally understood now that what he had lost was Ye Chuyan, the only person in the world who purely loved him.
Once, he and Pei Ye despicably plotted against Ye Chuyan to make Ye Chuyan fall in love with him at first sight.
Later, no matter how despicable he was, that Ye Chuyan loved him without hesitation and never gave up.
However, such a firm love was destroyed bit by bit by his cruelty.
In the end, nothing was left.
There is no regret medicine in this world, and there is no turning back time.
The Ye Chuyan who loved him disappeared in the desolation of time and could never come back.
Between heaven and earth, everything is quiet.
The biting cold wind blew across the faces of the two people.
Ye Chuyan saw a scene that she would never forget in her life.
She saw snowflakes falling on Pei Xiuyan's head, dyeing his black hair white as if casting a spell.
But in a moment, Pei Xiuyan's hair all turned into white hair.
Big drops of tears overflowed from the black iron eyepatch on his left eye.
turn out to be.
Some people really grow old in an instant.
turn out to be.
Without eyes, there will still be tears.
But, the lost left eye and the lost love can never be found again.
Pei Xiuyan held Ye Chuyan tightly in his arms and let out a huge, heartbroken cry.
The sound echoed outside the empty attic, which was particularly desolate.
Ye Chuyan stood still.
She found that there were hot tears dripping from the top of her head on her face, and she was instantly cooled by the cold wind.
She heard Pei Xiuyan let out a huge scream from his chest, causing his whole heart to tremble violently.
She smelled the scent of Yuelin incense on Pei Xiuyan, which was mellow but not strong.
She suddenly remembered.
The day I fell in love with Pei Xiuyan at first sight, he had the same fragrance on his body.
That day was also such a snowy day. Pei Xiuyan was wearing a red military uniform, with a thin layer of snow on his head, and walked towards him step by step.
She hadn't recalled this for so long that she had almost forgotten that Pei Xiuyan also liked to use incense.
He once held his own hand and told himself how to draw the sword with a smile.
All she remembers now is that the smell of agarwood makes people feel comfortable and peaceful.
There is a man with thousands of stars in his eyes, who will smile and call him wife, and will give him the purest love.
Pei Xiuyan finally stopped crying.
He put his chin on Ye Chuyan's forehead and begged in a lonely tone: "Ayan...can you...call me...Ace for the last time?"
Ye Chuyan bit her lower lip and whispered in a girl's clear voice: "Ace, let yourself go."
"You will become a wise king in Dafeng."
Pei Xiuyan, who is not obsessed with love and has a cold nature, will be the best monarch in Dafeng.
Pei Xiuyan's whole body was trembling. He hugged Ye Chuyan tightly and refused to let go. After a long time, he said in a hoarse voice:
"Ye Chuyan, let's go."
"He's waiting for you at the door."
Ye Chuyan reacted instantly and quickly broke away from Pei Xiuyan's arms.
Like a fiery red horse, it ran briskly towards the gate of the Qing Palace.
Pei Xiuyan stood still and watched Ye Chuyan's figure gradually disappear from sight.
He seemed to see the old Ye Chuyan again.
Still so enthusiastic and public, wanton and bright.
He stretched out his hand to catch a piece of snowflake. The clear and translucent snowflake fell on his palm and was evaporated in an instant.
Only a small water stain remains.
He stared blankly at his palm.
It turns out that some things leave traces.
But it won't stay forever.
