It's been snowing heavily these days.
Pei Ye sent a eunuch to notify me early in the morning, asking me to put on a red military uniform and go to the palace to find him.
Pei Ye is the current emperor, not the Queen Mother's biological child. Pei Ye's biological mother died after giving birth to him. He was named after the Queen Mother. After the death of the late emperor, he became the emperor.
But because of her young age, the Queen Mother is temporarily in charge.
I didn't understand why Pei Ye asked me to wear red clothes, but I agreed immediately.
My parents died of illness, and I was the only one in the Qing Palace. If I wanted to revive the Qing Palace, I could only try my best to curry favor with Pei Ye. The Queen Mother will grow old one day, and Pei Ye is the one who will be in power in the future.
I have been taller than others since I was a child, and my appearance is also very outstanding. I stand out in red clothes.
When I came to the palace, I found out that it was the Queen Mother who wanted to take Pei Ye to Ye Mansion to see Ye Chuyan.
Ye Mansion is a scholarly family in Dafeng. Ye Jin's ancestors were imperial teachers for three generations and are respected by scholars all over the world. The current Queen Mother is Ye Jin's sister. The Ye family is a well-deserved noble family.
Ye Chuyan is Ye Jin's only legitimate daughter. I heard that she likes to dance swords and practice martial arts, which is different from other ladies. She also doesn't like to attend palace banquets. I have never met her.
I guess the Queen Mother wants Pei Ye to make Ye Chuyan his queen in the future so that the Ye family will be stable for a long time.
I know that Pei Ye has long been tired of the Queen Mother's control of politics. He is not willing to be manipulated by the Queen Mother again and again. Especially the matter of marrying the Ye family's legitimate daughter makes him very disgusted.
But what if he takes me with him?
Although I am a prince of the royal family, due to the death of my parents, the Qing royal family has been in a state of ruin, and I have been living a hand-to-mouth existence all day long. The legitimate daughter of the Ye family is beyond my imagination.
She was destined to be the queen at birth, and there was no way she would marry me.
However, I still want to go to Ye Mansion.
Because some time ago, in order to hunt Phnom Penh tiger and make a tiger fur coat for Pei Ye, I secretly went to the border area and was almost bitten to death by a poisonous snake in the forest. When I woke up, I found that a young boy in blue had saved me.
She is charming, charming and pitiful. I recognized her immediately as a woman disguised as a man.
I don't know how someone as weak as her could save me. When I think of that scene, I think she is brave, strong, and heart-wrenching.
I know her name is Zhao Yujiao, and she went out to hunt with Ye Chuyan that day. She and Ye Chuyan got separated and accidentally saved me. Ye Chuyan was injured after falling off a cliff while hunting, and it is said that he also lost his memory.
Like me, she has no father or mother. She is a distant relative of Ye Mansion and lives in Ye Mansion.
I really want to take the opportunity to go to Ye Mansion to see her.
After arriving at Ye Mansion, the Queen Mother asked Pei Ye to go to the Meilin in the backyard to make some gestures with Ye Chuyan.
Pei Ye took me to Merlin.
When we were approaching the Meilin Moon Gate, Pei Ye stared at me and said seriously: "Now, go inside and if you see Ye Chuyan practicing her sword, you will teach her a few moves, do you understand?"
Pei Ye has a cinnabar mole between his eyebrows, and he looks pretty, but when he said these words, I always felt that he was a bit harsh and inappropriate for his age.
I didn't dare to refuse, so I agreed.
He stood outside the Moon Gate and watched me walk into the depths of Merlin against the thin snow.
Inside I saw a girl in red, practicing her sword with a straight face.
She looks very heroic, has a strong posture, and is extremely serious when dancing with the sword. She is completely different from other ladies.
I couldn't help but cheer. "What a handsome move..."
She stopped and looked at me, and I saw a flash of surprise in her eyes. Then, she smiled as brightly as the rising sun.
When she smiled, her narrow eyes bent down, and they were particularly bright inside.
"Are you Prince Xiao Qing, Pei Xiuyan?"
I was a little surprised, "How do you know?"
She laughed wildly and openly.
"There are only a few people in the world who dare to walk freely in the back garden of our Ye family. It is said that King Xiao Qing is very tall and handsome. I guess it is you."
She is indeed Ye Jin's legitimate daughter. She is so smart that she can guess who I am at just one glance.
I raised my eyebrows, "Although you draw the sword quickly, it's not stable. It should be like this..."
After saying that, I walked over and told her step by step how to draw the sword.
She had a faint fragrance on her body, which was different from the usual incense. It smelled very good, and I was a little stunned for a while.
When she saw me standing still, she turned aside with a blushing face and hesitated: "I...I...don't practice anymore..."
After saying that, she quickly disappeared into the plum forest like a brisk deer.
I stood still and didn't move.
Pei Ye walked up to me slowly, nodded to me who was stunned, and said two words with a sneer. "very good."
That day, after returning to the front hall, the Queen Mother looked at me with a displeased look.
I know that it was probably Ye Chuyan who was attracted to me and rejected Pei Ye.
I find it ridiculous. What is the temptation of a seven-year-old girl? The position of queen is something that many women dream of.
Even if she falls in love with me, in the end, she still wants to marry Pei Ye and become the queen?
I ran out looking for an opportunity and found Zhao Yujiao. She was hiding in a remote part of a garden somewhere, crying.
Seeing me coming, she hurriedly put away her tears, "You...why are you here?"
I saw her eyes were red from crying, and I felt a little distressed, "Why are you crying?"
She shook her head and said it was okay. I'm a little angry. It must be Ye Mansion that treats her badly, which makes her so sad.
Later, I always found reasons and excuses to go to Ye Mansion. I wanted to see Zhao Yujiao. Was she crying again?
Ye Chuyan didn't care about this, she liked seeing me go there. As soon as I came over, she would drag Zhao Yujiao along with her to find me.
She thinks I will be happy when I see Zhao Yujiao, and she will be happy when she sees me happy.
She likes to call me Brother Yan, and likes to pester me to teach her how to practice swordsmanship.
Zhao Yujiao called me "Prince" in a polite manner.
I think Ye Chuyan really doesn't look like a lady, she's lively and flamboyant, and she's not dignified at all.
However, when she called me brother Yan, I felt inexplicably comfortable.
She gives me a gift every year on my birthday. But every time I would accidentally lose or destroy it.
When she was eight years old, she embroidered a purse for me, and Zhao Yujiao also gave me a purse.
Zhao Yujiao cried when she saw Ye Chuyan's purse in my hand.
She cried and said, "Yes...I'm sorry, I am nothing but your savior...I know that I am of low status and will not deliver your things..."
It was extremely uncomfortable for me to hear.
My father and mother died when I was very young, and I have no relatives.
My mother gave me my first life, but left me alone.
Zhao Yujiao also had no father or mother, but she saved me and gave me a second life. I should be nicer to her and not make her cry.
I threw the purse sent by Ye Chuyan into the moat without hesitation.
Zhao Yujiao was startled, but she quickly put away her tears and looked at me gratefully. She said that I made her feel important, and that she was no longer the helpless Miss Zhao living in Ye Mansion with no one caring about her.
From now on, every birthday, the things Ye Chuyan gave me would always be thrown away by me because of Zhao Yujiao and various other reasons.
She was very sad when she found out, and she continued to send them even after being sad.
I even thought, she is going to be the queen in the future, why should she pretend to be nice to me like this? After my parents passed away, I was fed up with the hypocrisy of others.
Sometimes I would be nice to her on purpose and see her jumping for joy and her eyes shining.
Then he snubbed her like a prank to see how sad she was.
Over the years, Wu Mu would come to Kyoto to look for her from time to time.
I want to laugh every time I see Wu Mu.
He is obviously the richest young master of the Wu family in Dafeng, why is he always like a fool flying into the flames?
Every time he comes to Kyoto, instead of giving gold, silver and jewelry to Ye Chuyan, he always gives him some weird things he made himself. They are not precious, but it can be seen that they are very thoughtful. One year, he even got a box of lychees from nowhere and sent them to Ye Chuyan all the way. This incident moved everyone in the Ye family.
Ye Chuyan understood Wu Mu's thoughts and was very moved, but refused to accept his things. Wu Mu insisted on sending it off.
Ye Chuyan has a good relationship with him, like close friends.
But I can see that Wu Mu really likes Ye Chuyan.
Wu Mu told me again and again that Ye Chuyan and I were not suitable and asked me to stay away from Ye Chuyan.
I think Wu Mu is so ridiculous.
Even if Ye Chuyan falls in love with me, it is impossible for her to marry me. She is Queen Dafeng appointed by the Queen Mother.
What's more, Wu Mu is just the son of Huang Shang. Apart from his family's wealth, his status is completely unworthy of the Ye family.
What qualifications does he have to like Ye Chuyan?
Ye Chuqing told me that Ye Chuyan had a good relationship with Wu Mu before he lost his memory. If possible, he would like Ye Chuyan to marry Wu Mu when he grows up.
Although the Wu family's status is not as good as that of the Ye family, Wu Mu has a pure heart, and Ye Chuyan will be very happy when she marries him.
I laugh while saying nothing.
Who Ye Chuyan will marry in the end depends on whether she can overcome the Queen Mother's wishes.
I was thinking at the time that maybe Ye Chuyan and Wu Mu were made for each other, and they were both stupid enough. If you like someone, you won't leave any room for retreat, and you will be extremely stubborn and give everything you have.
When she was fifteen years old, she had a haircut, but she didn't marry Pei Ye. I was very puzzled.
She said: The person I like is you, and the person I want to marry is also you. If the Queen Mother forces me, I will die.
I was silent after listening.
If I marry her, Zhao Yujiao will definitely be very sad. I can't let my savior be sad.
Later, Zhao Yujiao suddenly fell ill. She was very ill and lay dying in bed.
I was so anxious that I went to Ye Mansion to see her again and again.
Seeing her withering away, Ye Chuyan went to beg Ye Jin for three days and got the only resurrecting grass in the world.
She came to me with the Resurrection Grass, looked at me pitifully, and asked timidly: "Pei Xiuyan, if I give you the Resurrection Grass, can you marry me?"
I answered without hesitation, "Yes."
After answering I was a little confused. Zhao Yujiao must be very sad if I marry her, but why did I agree without hesitation?
I told myself that by marrying her, I could save Zhao Yujiao.
If Zhao Yujiao is sad, you can't blame me, it's all because of Ye Chuyan.
So, I used the Resurrection Grass to revive Zhao Yujiao and got engaged to Ye Chuyan.
After Zhao Yujiao recovered from her illness, she was heartbroken when she found out that I was going to marry Ye Chuyan.
She cried and begged me to take her away. She said she wanted to live in the Qing Palace with no name or status, and just wanted to see me every day.
I agreed.
I'm worried that after marrying Ye Chuyan, I won't be able to visit her often, and she will be bullied in Ye Mansion.
Zhao Yujiao left Ye Mansion without hesitation and lived in my palace, which made Ye Jin very dissatisfied.
Even so, Ye Chuyan was not angry. She also advised Ye Jin not to be angry about it.
The day before the wedding, the Queen Mother called me to the palace.
She told me that after Ye Chuyan fell into the glacier, it was extremely difficult for her to conceive and it was difficult for her to have children.
If I marry her, I cannot betray her in the future, and I cannot divorce my wife without death.
The pressure on the Queen Mother was very heavy, and I resented the feeling of being threatened.
Being threatened by Ye Chuyan to marry her, and being threatened by the Queen Mother to swear an oath, I felt very bad.
In the end, I reluctantly swore in front of the Queen Mother: I would never let Ye Chuyan down in this life, let alone divorce my wife.
The next day, I wore a wedding robe and led the wedding team to Ye Mansion to marry her.
Before I led her into the sedan chair, Mrs. Ye looked at me with tears in her eyes and warned me again and again.
"Your Majesty, I will leave my Ayan to you. Please treat her well."
"I named her "Yan" so that she would have a smile on her face when others call her name. The prince must not live up to this name."
I nodded perfunctorily. What she was thinking about was: Zhao Yujiao must be very sad in the house if I take Ye Chuyan back. It was Ye Chuyan who forced me to marry her. I didn't mean to make my savior Zhao Yujiao sad.
I saw Ye Chuyan's hand trembling under her wedding robe. I don't know if she is happy or excited?
Or perhaps, he felt sad about my perfunctory reaction.
The wedding banquet was very grand, and all the officials from Dafeng's court came. It was very late before I sent all the guests away.
After I saw off the last guest, Zhao Yujiao's maid came to me and said that she would cry so heartbroken.
After hearing this, I hurried over to see her. She was lying on the bed, her eyes were severely swollen, and her face, which was originally beautiful, was beyond recognition from crying.
She held my hand and begged me not to leave and to let me stay with her.
I saw her tears and my heart softened. She is my savior, how could I break her heart.
I spent the whole night with her in the yard watching the stars and the moon.
I didn't go back until dawn. When I went back, I found Ye Chuyan still sitting by the bed wearing a red hijab.
She seemed motionless all night.
I lifted her hijab and saw despair and sadness in her eyes.
I told her nonchalantly that I didn't come over yesterday because I had something to do.
She wiped her tears, forced a smile and said, "It doesn't matter."
Seeing her uncomfortable look, I suddenly felt inexplicably suffocated. I quickly advised myself: It’s all Ye Chuyan’s fault for forcing me to marry her, which made Zhao Yujiao sad. Ye Chuyan deserved to be sad.
After comforting myself in this way, I felt much more comfortable.
As soon as Ye Chuyan got married, he let the dowry maid Bai Zhi enter the household registration of the palace, and asked Bai Zhi to call her princess along with the servants in the palace. She seems to really like the title Princess.
I have a hidden stomach disease that occasionally attacks me. She learned a lot of stomach-nurturing meals from the chef and tried her best to cook them for me every day.
However, when I was delayed in handling government affairs, or when I went to Zhao Yujiao's place, I always forgot to inform her.
She kept waiting for me, but in the end she couldn't wait any longer, so she all fell down.
She heard people outside saying that I married her to gain access to the Ye family, so she rarely went back to the Ye family.
Sometimes, I see her looking at the old grandma in the house in a daze. I guess she misses Mrs. Ye, but she is too stubborn to go back.
Another time, while she was practicing swordplay in the courtyard, I took a nap in the room and casually sighed, "It's really noisy."
From then on, I never saw her practicing sword again.
She saw that my attitude towards Zhao Yujiao was very gentle, and she wanted me to be so gentle towards her, so she tried her best to imitate Zhao Yujiao, and even imitated Zhao Yujiao in calling me Prince.
But no matter how much she imitates, she doesn't look like it.
She is the passionate and public Ye Chuyan at heart, and there is no way she can turn into the soft and charming Zhao Yujiao.
She quarreled with me many times because of Zhao Yujiao.
I wonder why she, who was so tolerant before getting married, became so petty after getting married.
I have never had anything with Zhao Yujiao, so why can't she tolerate a weak and helpless woman like Zhao Yujiao living in the house? Besides, she is my savior.
Every time after an argument with her, Zhao Yujiao would comfort me with soft words, saying that Ye Chuyan’s nature was like this and she hoped I wouldn’t be angry.
However, after listening to Zhao Yujiao's words, I became even more angry.
Is it just because she is the legitimate daughter of the Ye family that she is so stubborn and arrogant?
I went to Ye Chuyan and said that I wanted to marry Zhao Yujiao as my equal wife, but she decisively refused. She allowed me to take Zhao Yujiao as my concubine, but she would never allow me to make Zhao Yujiao my equal wife.
She said that I only have her as my wife, and as long as she lives, I will not be allowed to take another wife.
I didn't bother to argue with her, so I just put this one down.
This delay lasted for three years. Sometimes I don't know why I am not willing to give Zhao Yujiao the status of a concubine, but let her live in the house without a name or status.
I don't even have any sexual desire for Zhao Yujiao.
Only when I face Ye Chuyan will I have the idea of possession.
I never pity her, and afterwards, when I saw the bruises on her body, I regretted it. But the regret only lasts for a moment, and I will still go crazy next time.
Ye Chuyan seems to have a magical power that makes me crazy.
After the Queen Mother passed away, Pei Ye finally took power.
After he came to power, he repeatedly suppressed the families of important ministers.
One day, I really couldn't stand it, so I had an argument with him.
He looked at me with disdain and said, "Pei Xiuyan, you don't need to tell me what to do, you just have to do it according to my instructions."
I'm a little helpless.
I know that Pei Ye is the emperor, and I know that I should do what he says, but his behavior will only chill the courtiers, and sooner or later it will shake the foundation of Dafeng.
No matter what I do, I can't persuade him, and I still want to be his executioner.
My mood was extremely bad.
As soon as I left the palace, a servant came to me and said that Ye Chuyan and Zhao Yujiao had a dispute. Ye Chuyan fell into the lotus pond under the attic and was not seriously injured, but Zhao Yujiao fell downstairs and broke her leg.
I suddenly felt a huge unknown fire.
Ye Chuyan has everything, why can't he tolerate little Zhao Yujiao? Even for the sake of Zhao Yujiao being my savior, can't I be nicer to her?
She used to just complain a few words in front of me, but now she actually took advantage of my absence to kill Zhao Yujiao.
She is highly skilled in martial arts, but Zhao Yujiao has no power to restrain a chicken. If she is more ruthless, Zhao Yujiao will only die.
How could she become such a vicious woman!
Full of anger, I returned to the house madly, rushed to Jiangjiayuan, and kicked open the door.
Seeing her sitting on the bed unharmed, her face was filled with relief, happiness, and an expectant smile.
My anger was at its peak.
Ye Chuyan really turned into a poisonous woman! He was also happy because he killed Zhao Yujiao.
As if I was crazy, I went up and grabbed her hair, yelling: "Ye Chuyan! You vicious woman! Are you satisfied if Jiaojiao dies? She has no power to restrain a chicken, how can you bear to push her down?" attic!"
Then, under the control of anger, I did the most regretful thing in my life that day.
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Later, when I became the emperor, she came back to me voluntarily for Wu Mu and willingly lived in Kunning Palace.
My heart was filled with ecstasy and excitement.
I feel that this is the opportunity God has given me. She has returned to me again. As long as I persist in my efforts, she will fall in love with me again sooner or later.
She is pregnant and the child is Wumu's. She never hid this from me from beginning to end.
She was waiting for my reaction.
I wanted her to have an unexpected miscarriage, but when I saw her sitting in Kunning Palace, gentle and charming, I changed my mind.
I decided to get rid of my selfish and domineering habits and learn to be tolerant and understanding.
I allowed her to give birth to this child as long as she called me Ace again.
I want her to give me this tenderness.
Once, when she was cheating on me, she affectionately called me Ace every day.
Now, even though I know that that period of time was honey wrapped in poison, I still want to go back to that period of time.
Because during that time, I saw my heart clearly and knew that the person I loved most was her.
And she stays with me every day with a smile on her face.
That was the happiest time of my life.
She was horrified and scared and rejected my offer.
With Wu Mu in her heart, she no longer has any feelings for others.
Even if it is false tenderness, he is not willing to give me any charity.
She accidentally slipped and I quickly caught her. But she sadly begged me to give her a happy life.
It turns out that in her heart, I will always be the one who brings her harm.
No matter what I say or do, she no longer believes me.
I wrote a letter to Wu Mu asking him to return to Kyoto.
I want to let her go and make her happy, but I am unwilling to do so. I am ready to give myself one last chance.
On New Year's Eve, I asked her to wear the same red dress as me, held her hand, and walked into the Qing Palace again.
She still looks like the girl she was when she first got married, but this time she is no longer as showy and enthusiastic.
She walked beside me quietly and obediently.
We stepped into Jiangjiayuan, and I said humbly and angrily:
"Ayan, I'm sorry. I have caused you countless hurt and pain here."
"If I could do it again, I would never hurt you again."
She just looked up at me quietly, pursed her lips, and whispered:
"No need to say sorry, I don't care anymore."
I suddenly realized what it felt like for her to wait for me until dawn on her wedding night.
Turns out, this is what it feels like when the person you love doesn’t care about you.
It hurt like being cut into pieces with a thousand knives.
I took her to the lotus pond, and she told me proudly that she was not afraid of water or cold.
She was afraid of water because she was pushed off a cliff by Zhao Yujiao and fell into a glacier because she saved me.
She was afraid of the cold because I threw her down from the attic on a snowy day and watched her father and brother being tortured.
Now, she is not afraid anymore.
Someone gave her the courage and love to no longer be afraid. But, that person is not me.
She took my hand up to the attic and fell down in front of me.
My heart is like falling into an abyss.
I jumped down to save her, but she looked at me with doubtful eyes and asked me why I saved her.
There was no hatred in this doubtful look.
She no longer had any love or hatred for me. She even thought I was going to abort her child. After she jumped off the building voluntarily, she no longer hated me.
To her, I am now a tree on the roadside and a grain of sand on the ground.
She has no feelings for me anymore.
I asked her, if I rescued her like this that day, would I be able to take her home?
She told me many secrets hidden deep in her heart, and also said: when it is gone, it is gone, and it will never come back.
I lost Ayan, who loved me the most.
My heart, at that moment, was completely empty.
My black hair turned into white hair.
I begged her to call me A Ce one last time.
She bit her lower lip and told me in a girl's clear voice: "Ace, let yourself go."
"You will become a wise king in Dafeng."
I once swore in front of the Queen Mother that I would never let her down.
However, I failed her. Let her love for me die little by little.
I once prayed in front of the Buddha to grow old together with her.
Later, when I grew old, she didn't want to grow old with me.
I made a promise to her that I would never hurt her again and I would never break my promise.
So, I let her go and asked her to find Wu Mu. Let her never be hurt again.
I once told myself silently in my heart that as long as she wanted it, I would give it to her.
I want to use my position as emperor and everything I have to exchange for the rotation of time.
If I can't change it, I will use everything I have to fulfill my promise to her.
She wants me to be a wise king, and I am willing.
I will spend my life fulfilling this promise.
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February 2nd was the first time she called me Ace.
The last time she called me A Ce, she asked me to be a wise king.
I got married on February 2nd to tell her that Ace would never break his promise to Ayan again.
A Yan wanted A Ce to be a wise king, so A Ce tried his best to do it.
I married Zhang Xiuyu as my queen. This is a marriage that stabilizes imperial power. It does not require feelings, only each other's identity and status.
On the wedding day, I wore a red wedding robe, holding a red silk hand, and walked side by side with Zhang Xiuyu in the square outside the main hall.
I saw that she just glanced at me and then looked at Wu Mu beside her.
I saw her eyes shining like fireflies when she looked at Wu Mu.
This look once belonged to me.
For a moment, I wanted to exchange everything with Wu Mu.
I don't want the emperor's position and supreme power, I just want to grow old together with her.
But I know I can't change it.
All I can do is continue my last promise and be a wise king.
I stood on the high platform and watched her kneeling on the ground with Wu Mu, shouting long live.
I raised my head and looked straight ahead.
Ayan, believe me, as long as you want, I will give it to you.
You want me to become a wise king, and I will do it for the rest of my life.
On the night of the wedding, I lifted Zhang Xiuyu’s hijab.
She doesn't look as handsome as A Yan, nor as charming as Zhao Yujiao, but has a different kind of euphemism and beauty.
Like me, she has neither joy nor sorrow.
I vaguely knew that she almost married Wu Mu, and even sang a song to please Wu Mu.
I told her: No matter who you hide in your heart, from now on, just be a queen and there is no need to think about anything else.
She bent over and knelt on the ground and said with great piety: Your Majesty, if one day I want to be your wife, I hope you will not reject me.
I looked down at her firm figure, lost in thought.
I'm thinking, she's braver than me.
She has the courage to give up the person in her heart and start something new.
But, I don't know if I have the courage.
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I learned that after Nan Gongli moved the graves of Ye family's father and brother to Dianzhou, he ordered people to move Mrs. Ye's grave there as well.
I once destroyed the Ye family with my own hands. Now, I want to try my best to reunite the Ye family.
I named Wumu the Marquis of Ping'an and asked him to guard Dianzhou.
She can live freely in Dianzhou with Wu Mu, and can also help me guard the south gate of Dafeng.
Na Sheng said that the food clan in the northwest is ready to move through the border junction of Beirong and Dafeng and invade both countries at the same time. He asked me to send people over to discuss countermeasures.
My secret guard sent a secret message saying that the big food tribe is coming with a lot of gunpowder weapons that I have never seen before. It looks extremely dangerous and we must be prepared in advance.
After much thought, I felt that she and Wu Mu were the most suitable candidates.
Only they know Na Sheng's character best.
When Yan Pei learned about this, he asked to go to Dianzhou to deliver the letter, and I agreed.
When Yan Pei sends the letter, she will soon go to Beirong with Wu Mu on behalf of Dafeng to discuss ways to fight against the food clan.
She may never know that when she and Wu Mu helped me guard Dafeng, it made me feel that she and I had become a family.
It’s just that the name of the family is Dafeng.
Another thing is: Even though the left eye has been gouged out, it still hurts terribly every time it rains.
This hurts, just like the injury I once caused her.
