Listening to Li Xianyu's words, Abi was silent for a while, feeling a little emotional and inexplicably melancholy.
She knew that things had changed and she could not go back to the past.
"If you want to ask for my forgiveness, there is no need at all." Abi said softly, "I am just a maid. Ever since I was a child, I have never had the right to choose.
It doesn't matter what I think.
You don't have to worry about me. "
Li Xianyu looked at Abi and said, "Do you know why I met you first when I came back this time?"
Abi looked at Li Xianyu without saying anything, feeling a little strange in her heart.
"I really want to say something very inappropriate to you here." Li Xianyu said slowly, "Princes, generals and ministers, would you rather have the guts?"
"You told me before, but you probably forgot." Abi said softly.
Li Xianyu paused, he did say that.
It's just that maybe she wasn't sincere at the time, and she probably just wanted to deceive little Abi in front of her.
Now, he no longer needs to lie.
The strong strength gave him boundless confidence.
His mentality has really changed completely.
He will no longer feel inferior, nor will he care about so-called self-esteem.
No need.
The so-called self-esteem of truly strong people does not exist at all.
Because no one is qualified to touch his self-esteem.
This is Li Xianyu's current state.
"I haven't forgotten." Li Xianyu looked at Abi and said seriously, "You are different from them. A'Zhu is Duan Zhengchun's daughter and can be regarded as a princess of the country. Wang Yuyan is the eldest lady of Mantuo Villa and is also Duan's daughter. Zhengchun’s daughter…
Mu Wanqing and Azi are both Duan Zhengchun's daughters. In some ways, their status is more noble than yours.
You don't have such a background, you are just a maid of Murong Fu.
Whether it's Murong Fu, Murong Bo and his wife, or Bao BuTong, Feng BoE and others, they seem to respect you and say they don't treat you as a maid.
However, you have a sense of propriety in one song and treat yourself as a maid in the other, not daring to be rude in the slightest.
Even when you meet me, a former humble scholar, you always keep your attitude very low.
Deep down inside you have low self-esteem. "
“……”
Abi remained silent.
She indeed has low self-esteem and has never dared to compare herself to Wang Yuyan.
Even in front of A'Zhu, she was a little humble.
"Actually, you and I are very similar in terms of background." Li Xianyu smiled lightly, "I am a poor scholar, and I was a poor scholar who was robbed by bandits.
When I met you, it was when I was most embarrassed. At that time, you should be able to feel my embarrassment, right? "
“……”
Abi's eyes moved slightly, but she remained silent.
At that time, she didn't think much about it and just regarded Li Xianyu as a strange scholar.
As for whether Li Xianyu was in a very embarrassed state at that time, Abi never gave it much thought.
She just treats everyone well out of habit.
"In you, I see another me." Li Xianyu said, "A humble me, a me who should be lying in the mud, a me who must look up to everyone."
“……”
Abi lowered her head slightly.
Li Xianyu continued: "As a humble person, I should be like you.
But I am not willing to do so. As I just said, princes, generals and prime ministers would rather have the seed?
Why should I look up to them?
Just because of birth?
Is there really such a thing as nobility?
I studied hard for ten years, just to bow down in front of them? "
“……”
Abi was still silent, but this time, she wanted to say something, but she didn't know what to say.
"I understand your humbleness very well, and I also want to erase your humbleness." Li Xianyu said, "I feel that just because of our background, we should not be humble.
This world may not be equal, but we should not deny ourselves first.
If we are determined from the beginning that we cannot compare with them, then how can we surpass them?
Do you think I was qualified to marry Wang Yuyan when we first met? "
Abi's eyes moved slightly and she whispered: "At that time, Miss Wang probably won't be willing to marry you."
Li Xianyu smiled.
"What about A'Zhu? Will she marry me then?"
Li Xianyu looked at Abi and chuckled, "Or what about you, at that time, were you willing to marry me?"
“……”
Abi's pretty face turned red and she was speechless for a moment.
"I don't want to."
Li Xianyu smiled leisurely and said, "At that time, no matter whether you had someone you liked or not, you would not look down on me, a poor scholar.
In your eyes, Duan Yu is thousands of times better than me. "
"It's not that exaggerated."
Abi couldn't help but said.
After saying that, her pretty face turned red again.
"Is it an exaggeration?" Li Xianyu looked into Abi's eyes and said, "If at that time, one of the three girls, A'Zhu and Wang Yuyan, was willing to marry me, that person must be you.
But if there is one person who despises me the most, that person must be you. "
When Abi heard the first sentence, her pretty face flushed; when she heard the second half, she was startled and her beautiful eyebrows gradually frowned.
"Don't deny it yet." Li Xianyu said, "Long years of humility have made you very kind and very self-aware. You are willing to marry me because my background is the same as yours. Similarly, if you marry me, you won't feel inferior.
Similarly, you are willing to marry me because you think my background is not good enough, and you believe that I am inferior to Murong Fu and Duan Yu. "
"I don't."
Abi whispered, feeling a little dissatisfied and a little embarrassed.
"Those who are in authority are confused, and those who are onlookers are clear." Li Xianyu said with a smile, "You will never analyze your own mentality. But I will, because I am not willing to be a poor scholar, and I am not willing to live in a humble way like you. ”
“……”
Abi was silent.
Humble?
She wasn't sure.
She just hid many thoughts in her heart, held back many impulses, and gave up many unrealistic fantasies.
"Now, in your eyes, I probably feel you are not worthy of me."
Li Xianyu chuckled and said, "You think you are a maid, I, the new owner of Mantuo Villa, don't care what you think.
You don't even dare to mention Murong Fu in front of me. Even the hatred in your heart seems very humble.
Perhaps you may also think that a maid is not qualified to avenge the young master at all.
I killed your young master Murong Fu, do you hate me?
You dare not hate.
When you meet me here, you still need to talk to me and play chess with me as usual, and you don't dare to show any difference from the past. "
“……”
Abi lowered her head and bit her lip.
The young master Murong Fu died, and she was very sad.
But when she thought that it was Li Xianyu who killed the young master, she didn't dare to think any further.
revenge? She really didn't dare to think about it, always vaguely feeling that her position was not qualified to seek revenge.
